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No one is that HAPPY!

"No one is that happy" You're right.

Happiness comes and goes. The goal is to choose joy in all circumstances.

The past few months have been a major transition for me. I was preoccupied in creating a perfect world that i lost myself and my first true love, God. On top of that a good friend of mine died. But in the grand scheme of things, i learned everything is temporary. moments. feelings. people. flowers. I learned love is about giving. everything. and letting it hurt. I learned vulnerability is always the right choice because its easy to be cold in a world that make it so difficult to be soft. And even when people don't do their part, its still up to you to do yours. I learned all things come in twos. life and death. pain and joy. salt and sugar. its the balance of the universe. I learned that going to therapy and prioritizing it is a life saver and mental illness is real. I realized people mean well but no one really cares about you so its up to you to. I can hon…


Today, I went to Starbucks to do some much-needed work and all of a sudden my mind wandered to the thought of my good friend Raye who had just passed away a couple of weeks ago; I could feel her spirit.  It was calm, relaxing and happy. Just like one of the days I saw her there in her element, she had a big ole smile on her face and said, " HEEEEY SHELL!", then she embraced me with the warmest hug. When I felt the presence of  Raye's spirit today, I was rereading an article from The New York Times called, "How to Maintain Friendships." Since her death, I realized the importance of friendships and wanted to reach out to old friends and reconnect with them. As I was reading the article, I noticed the suggestions that were given, were all tools Raye used to stay in touch with me. I thought, "Wow, this is why I felt she was a good friend and even though we didn't communicate every day, I felt connected with her. One of the suggestions  the article gave th…

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